More than anything else in your life, your mind is your biggest asset. It’s ever-changing, adapting, transmitting, redirecting, strengthening, and expanding. Additionally, your mind only understands fight or flight. It’s reasoning. That creates conflict between the mind and heart. It causes confusion.
As you go about your Friday, I hope you allow yourself the release of some thoughts. I hope you live in the moments where, the thoughts that don’t serve you, are let go..in the wind.
Today’s a last.. The last Sunday of March.. A quarter of the year has nearly finished. How are you doing? Have you stayed on track with your resolutions? Do you need a pick-me-up or little push to get back on track? The super cool thing about a goal is, at any moment, you can begin.. Even if it’s “again”.
You got this, ok! You. Got. This!
Give yourself a touch of grace.. You deserve it. Start today, start again. Stay focused. You have all that you need within yourself to accomplish what you set your mind to.
” I am no longer going to live in fear, speak negatively about myself and others, blame myself for past mistakes, downplay my abilities and talents, cheat myself, lie to myself, live in denial, and feel guilty for things that are not my fault. I will not procrastinate, worry about things I have no control over, and suffocate my feelings and emotions. I will not put roadblocks in my path, make excuses, put myself down, fail to try, allow others to decide for me, lack accountability, and spew negativity out into the vibration of energy connected to my life. I will not sit in pity, expect nothing to change, and blame others for my choices. Instead, I am going to love myself, first! I’m going to give myself unconditional love, mercy, grace, and respect … Because I deserve it. ”
You can find all the details to the challenge here.
There’s no place for me to judge if any particular religion is better than the other. I don’t know if one is the “above all others”.
Over the years, I’ve grown to identify myself as a spiritual person. I know my intuition has never failed me. I know I’ve found great peace in a realm beyond mortal capability.
One quality that I’ve dearly cherished, is my sense of compassion. As an empath, I naturally absorb energy around me. I sense what has come in that precise moment; and, I’m able to extend what’s needed to help.
The religion I most identify with is Buddhism. My beliefs and moral compass align with their practices.
This is Buddhist Avalokiteshvara Kuan Yin Buddhism Statue
Avalokiteśvara is one of the most famous bodhisattvas in Buddhism. The worship of bodhisattvas (beings of enlightenment) is one of the most distinctive features of Mahāyāna Buddhism. Whereas early or mainstream Buddhism recognizes only two bodhisattvas—the Buddha in his previous lives and Maitreya, the future Buddha—there are a number of bodhisattvas in Mahāyāna to whom one can appeal for help and guidance. Of the many bodhisattvas, Avalokiteśvara is identified specifically as the embodiment of compassion and as such has been worshipped throughout Buddhist Asia.
Who am I? …. Have you ever asked yourself ? I’m curious to know how you responded. What did you think at the time? I wonder if, like me, you weren’t sure? Not entirely anyway.
In 2009, I started my discovery of who I am. I researched my health. I went to the doctor with the information and plan of action. I studied my personality test results. I researched about Highly Sensitive People. I wanted to believe I knew who I was. I wanted to believe I do know who I am.
That became me, what felt normal. I felt like I had a sense of self.. that I had worked through the crises and trauma of my childhood; and, I made it!
Roughly two months ago, something within me changed. I realized both of my two daughters were going to be school… 7 hours a day, 5 days a week… and my baby at her dad’s on the weekends.
That would follow 8.5 years of having AT LEAST one little child at home. It’s following, 24/7/365 days of attending to my kids. Picking up after them, bathing them, changing and dressing them, rocking and nursing, feeding and nurturing them. I literally made them my life.
Motherhood became “what I was good at”!
Before this chapter, I excelled in school.. I knew I was good at getting A’s! I enjoyed school. It seemed so much more simple than when I started in 2003. The difficult part of life was fairly over. I believed I could handle anything.
Ironically, though, at the same time, I wasn’t good at being “married”! Nope! I’ve been married twice and both were unhealthy codependency (not in a form of drugs!).
Was I good at being a friend? Hmmm. I was apart of a church. I was attending a fellowship group. I made attempts to create friendships in school. Everywhere I was, in every social settling, I wasn’t comfortable. I felt “literally felt the uncomfortable and awkward energy” in every one. That was without saying, members of the church would all congregate for some special reason or no reason.. and I would just so happen to find out, not be invited, whatever.
In a place that is suppose to be filled with a pure love, it was filled with favorites.. whispers.. facades of religion Jesus followers.. who only accepted a version of you.. or not at all.. because you are who you are…
When I came out as Bisexual, in 2009, I FINALLY felt comfortable in my own skin. I felt like I just threw opened the castle gates, for once in a long time. Anna from Frozen, best describes the freedom and joy in that moment.. when truth feels like it’s been achieved.
A divorce followed. A horrible broken heart followed that. Loss by the masses kept happening. Because I “chose the path” to sin? No! Because Truth should be hidden? No!
Because the world is comfortably complacent. In many world’s “Why fix what isn’t broken?”
So this leads me back to present time, kids start school.. And I FREAK OUT!!
Because I don’t know what else I’m good at! I have bad spells of anxiety because nights when my girls arent here, it’s literally too quiet sometimes. It’s so difficult to handle sometimes. I don’t know how to be or what to do with myself aside from mothering!
I suddenly feel all out of control.. Again! I feel uncomfortable and insecure. I feel such little confidence in my mental scenarios.
It’s a phase of transformation. It’s making me uncomfortable and doubtful.
I’ll be going through this for some time, I’m afraid. If anyone has any words of encouragement, I’d really appreciate it 💓
I’ve been fascinated by the dead for as long as I can remember. I actually feel this sense of obligation to walk cemeteries, to visit the people buried there… and to talk and listen to them. I’m not driven to antagonize spirits, or to summon them into my presence. I sit where ever I feel led; and, I wait for their lead. This recording is today, about 30 mins ago.
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