I spent too much time thinking about the past. According to my observations of human nature, I feel we’re more creative and yet, alive, in negative and difficult situations. It’s possibly the adrenaline the shoots through our veins, in the fight or flight mode. On the other hand, it’s possible all of this is utter nonsense because my breathing is way off course during such a time.
I don’t know; but, I find myself reminensing on many occasions that resulted in significant hurt. I’m working on this suffering, this year. No amount of guilt or shame is going to change what had happened.