Momma, I Need You

I say that so often. I say it when there’s an incident at my kid’s the school.. that only became “a big deal” because I found out. 😣

I say it on nights, like tonight. The tears return, as if the nightmare just happened.

I say it during times when, I swear, I am being the crazy mom who’s going to have kids resent her when they grow up.

I say it when my neighbor gets cross with me about trash cans, or some crazy driver nearly hits me during rush hour.

I say it when it’s Friday night; and, I’m home alone. When the anxiety blankets the atmosphere with the oncoming of dark.

There’s so many times when I need my mom. She lost so much. She took her own life.

I lost that respectable and independent, positive and compassionate female figure.

My emotions get too big; and, I feel like any minute.. I’m going to have a meltdown.

Everyone needs a mom… Even now, at 37… I need a mom.

– heartbroken,

Nova

9 thoughts on “Momma, I Need You

  1. Thank you for sharing!!.. your mom is always with you, in your heart wherever you go, and you can always visit and share the knowledge and wisdom she gave to you… 🙂
    A Letter From Heaven

    When tomorrow starts without me
    And I’m not here to see,
    If the sun should rise and find your eyes
    Filled with tears for me.

    I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
    The way you did today,
    While thinking of the many things
    We didn’t get to say.

    I know how much you love me
    As much as I love you,
    And each time you think of me
    I know you’ll miss me too.

    When tomorrow starts without me
    Don’t think we’re far apart,
    For every time you think of me
    I’m right there in your heart.
    (Alena Hakala Meadows)

    Until we meet again..
    May your troubles be less
    Your blessings be more
    And nothing but happiness
    Come through your door
    (Irish Saying)

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