Today has been a tough one. I’m exhausted. That said, I’m giving thanks for endings. Yes, good and bad ends. One these days, and during these times when life seems to laugh in our faces, it’s comforting to know, night is coming…
Here I am, attempting to warm up the holiday for my kids, boo, and my mechanic (he’s not family but I’m kind to him. No explanation needed for that right?) with some veggies and beef soup!
I just added a small amount of baking soda in to tone down the tomato taste. I bought the Hawaiian sweet rolls to go with it!! Gosh those are my favorite! Dessert is Chocolate chip and cream cookies. No this is not Thanksgiving dinner it’s just something I wanted to make, and it happened to be around a holiday.
Anyway, I don’t have a cookbook of moms or grandmas best recipes. If you could comment leave me a recipe that you absolutely love or was passed down in your family!
In 2021, I’m going to be more mindful of what I invest my energy. If it’s doesn’t add to the quality of my life, I’m not going to feed it. I don’t want it around. I’m not going to give it any time or energy.
In 2021, the moment 12:00 am hits, all that’s happened to that moment will be left at the alter. I won’t carry the anger anymore. I won’t hold myself the victim of my childhood. I won’t stand aside, rolling through the motions… foggy and confused.
I’m choosing to stop the suffering. The replaying will finally stop. The paragraph texts will finally stop. The confrontations upon deaf ears will stop. The crying because of hurt will stop. The insecurity and self hate will stop. The doubt will cease.
In this next year, I’m choosing to stand up and move forward….
Because I’m alive.
Because I’m breathing well.
Because I’m physically able.
Because I’m here.
Because I’m able.
Because I’m capable.
Because I’m taking control of my life.
Because I’m choosing to let go of the chains that bind me to the past.
In this next year, I pray you’ll do the same. Stop allowing yourself to suffer when it’s a choice to stop it. Grab the lesson, and run with it. Grow from it and forgive yourself. Treat yourself to some love and let it go. Every single one of us will experience and has experienced pain.
How much are you going to invest into your past, rather than moving towards healing?
No matter how valid your feelings are, and respectful you convey them; some individuals will label them “negative” and the conversation “shit”… simply because immaturity can’t handle uncomfortable!
You didn’t say anything disrespectful. They just can’t handle confrontation. You didn’t belittle them or lose your integrity. They just can’t handle you being anything but pleasant. You didn’t do anything wrong. They just can’t handle you speaking up for yourself.
You are not at fault for speaking your truth. Their response to you speaking your truth exemplifies their character.
Remember these truths❤️
Then tell them to fuck off! (HA! No don’t do that!!)